Can’t be strong all the time!

Sometimes I think it would be easier to just throw in the towel, and just be done with shit.

I’m so tired of walking around with a mask on, or poking my chest out, or holding my head up high…when almost everything inside me feels broken and just ready to give in.

Its really hard trying to be strong all the time, trying to keep your fears and weaknesses to yourself.

Sometimes I feel so lonely, and its hurts

I’ll make jokes and pretend like I don’t care, like I’m fine being lonely.

There are times where I do prefer to be alone and I’m truly okay being alone.,..

but there are times when I really need someone to talk to, someone to listen, someone to say its all going to be okay…

Yeah it’s great to be that strong woman that can hold it down on her own….but even she needs a hug some days…

I feel like I’ve given all my hugs out to the world and now I have none, not even any to hug myself.

I don’t want to be a angry bitter woman…

But some days that exactly who I am…

Just walking around with a fucking chip on my shoulder…

I’m just so angry

So fed-up

Fed up with this world

Fed up with the people I allowed in my life, who took advantage.

Fed up with me…

I just feel sad all the time, or just numb.

It’s so much easier telling others that everything will be fine, than telling yourself that.

I had a good cry sitting at my office desk, while watching Youtube tutorials…

And it made me realize that I really need to start making changes, immediately..

I don’t know how many more of these days I can take.

 

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Growing and learning with every new sunrise and sunset. This blog is me finally taking control, because well "Nobody puts Baby in the corner"...nobody. No, but seriously just creating a space where I can share, vent and maybe brighten up a few people's day :).

2 thoughts on “Can’t be strong all the time!

  1. Hey
    I really hope the changes you do make truly help you out and make you,feel alot better. It’s hard, but it’s worth it. Just take your time. Meditate, take deep breaths, pamper yourself. Whatever you gotta do. Take care 🙂

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    1. Thank you so much! I really do appreciate you taking time out your day to write that. I hope so too girl! I hope so tooo!

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